“When the people of the world all know beauty as beauty, there arises the recognition of ugliness. When they all know the good as good, there arises the recognition of evil.”
Do you use your art journal? Your art materials? I mean really USE them? To paint your sadness or paint colors that make you feel good? To write lists? To figure things out?
Let yourself make a mess and get paint on your fingers. Watch what your art materials do when you don't have an elaborate plan.
The idea is not to make pretty stuff and post it on the internet. That's what it seems sometimes. The idea is to enjoy making stuff, whatever that stuff is.